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It starts in my toes

makes me crinkle my nose

It's 2 days left to my 2 month holidays and 3 days til I get to see my awesome COACH bag. I always find myself pressed for time nowadays. I am on standby constantly when my Aunt is here and it limits my plans for the first 3 weeks.

I'm excited, some of you might know why. I cant decide which I want. They're both great but... evidence some might say, that God is fair.

S: tall

M: short

S: cute

M: hot!

S: playful

M: mysterious

S: Music

M: Magic

S: buff

M: lean

I would like to say more but I dont want to give too much away. We'll see how things so. Waiting for the coming 14th.

How could I have been so stupid?

Without thought, without mind.

Why did I give in so easily

My will power shot.

I convince myself I will not lose control.

I will not let anyone get the better of me. Set my limits

Then all of a sudden, my walls crash down

my barriers collapse

I'm stripped bare,

I gave in, gave all, didn't hold back

There has to be a kind word for this
But I dont think it exists in this place

I noticed this on Rox's blog and I decided to try it for myself. It apparently reveals what my name means. Some paragraphs are the same as roxanne's though. thoughts? Hmmmmmm

What Kristel Means
You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

Most times I find these things too generic and so many of these qualities are in everyone. Heh, not much can be expected from a computer generated result anyway.

There are a few things I am looking forward to in FEB...

-2 and a half months hols.

-Coach Bag, (Thanks to my Aunty G.)

-Happy, Slutty, Crazy outings with Amirool and Aqila

-Shopping with Fad and the old school mates Char and Vanessa

-Chilling with 'Daddy' and Rox

-Dim Sum

-CNY

-Clubbing! (rox, we need to get thru our list)

I would actually like to say I'm looking forward to Valentines day but I wonder if anyone will even ask me out. Even if someone does, what if he's not the one I want to ask. I never actually had a romantic Valentine's date. Hopefully my 18th year, will be something special.

In my long absence, I thought about why people have blogs and where their motivation comes from. I realise that I have no mood to type anything most of the time. Uploading pictures is a night mare and more often than not, I get so lazy. Then I coe across someone's blog and it is filled with all the monotonous details of her daily life. All the way down to her waking up and taking a bus. God forbid my blog should turn into a detailed record of my daily routine.

The settling into a new year is usually followed by resolutions and the hope that by December we would have accomplished something significant. This year, feels different somehow. Like it isn't even upon us yet. Looking back, 07 sucked big time. The only highlight for me, my Birthday, which is always a highlight of any year. Sure, things happened and doors opened up, but I guess I didn't feel it because I didnt even feel the excitement that builds before Christmas. I didn't feel snuggly and happy. I didn't sing songs. It just wasn't as magical as I remember and it hurts. I'm still a kid at heart, sentimental about Christmas and Santa and how a New Year Party should be.

Oh well, I guess for now I will just look forward and enjoy eveyday, hopefully with the help of a Starburst lollypop.