Hate That I Love You

As much as I love you
As much as I need you
And I can't stand you
Must everything you do make me wanna smile
Can I not like you for awhile?

But you won't let me
You upset me
And then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget (that I was upset)
Can't remember what you did

But I hate it...
You know exactly what to do
So that I can't stay mad at you
For too long that's wrong

But I hate it...You know exactly how to touch
So that I don't want to fuss.. and fight no more
Said I despise that I adore you

And I hate how much I love you boy
can't stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you
I hate that I love you so

You completely know the power that you have
The only one makes me laugh

Said it's not fair
How you take advantage of the fact
That I... love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain't right

One of these days maybe your magic won't affect me
And your kiss won't make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you'll probably always have a spell on me...

As much I love you
As much as I need you
As much I love you
As much as I need you

And I hate that I love you so
And I hate how much I love you boy
I can't stand how much I need you (can't stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy
But I just can't let you go (but I just can't let you go no..)
And I hate that I love you so

Love

Not everything is put infront you, nothing is as it seems. Everyone puts up fences to hide hurt and suffering. When you know someone well enough or if you want something bad enough, you tend to find a way. It's hard to trust instincts and when your head gets in the way, the heart closes and somehow bleeds. To remind you it's there.

This is the second time, and now there's no turning back. Why is it that when I'm alone, I can think of all the reasons why I should go and never look back, but when I hear your voice or see your face, it makes me miss you and never want to leave?

Now I'm here alone missing you and more than anything I wish I could take the last hour away

I love you, but not as much as you love me. I would do almost anything for you, but you'd give your life in an instant for me. How can I carry on lying to you, to myself, to everyone else. You're too good for me, you, whose character never fails to humble me. Somehow, you could put aside all your anger, all your sadness and frustration just to make me smile and all I knew how to do was scowl and throw a tantrum. Sometimes, I wish I could be like you, feel the way you do, and see myself the way you do. I think you see something so much more than what I am. You see me through those rose-tinted glasses and for all that I do, you're the only one holding on.

I never deserved you, but yes, you in all your simple ways taught me the biggest lesson. I see it in you, and when I think I'm close to it, I'm reminded just how far away I really am.

You taught me love, in it's harshest form.

There are no bigger words than 'Thank You' or 'I Love You' but even these seem so insignificant. It can't erase the hurt I'm causing you, can't take away the guilt that eats at me everyday. There is nothing I can say to make this go away.


I think you can do much better than me,
After all the lies that I made you believe.
I told myself I wont miss you,
But I remember, what it feels like beside you.
I think you can do much better than me

dance

you called me over

took my hand

with a smile

we started to dance

you looked at me

I dont know why

I averted my eyes

you made me shy

your hand on my waist

one hand in mine

we danced closer

keeping in time

you held me tight

leaned in for a kiss

that at first I denied

this forbidden bliss

now I smile

at the memory that was

for that night

I was yours