Everybody does it...

It's just that nobody talks about it.

Human beings are in general, a selfish bunch. When faced with choices, especially those of the heart, how often do we try to make things work in our favour.

I now have trust issues. There is no easy way to find the truth or to choose who to believe. As much as I try, there are times where I wish I could be that fly on the wall. To know what really went on behind my back. My gut points in one direction and as much as I know I'm right, there is no sure way to prove it. All I know is, that things always go wrong when a guy is involved.

I think something in me has snapped or changed or somthing like that. I somehow see things differently, and the way I deal with things, seems unusual to me.

He's not the kind of guy I would ever have chosen, nor is he my usual type, but there is just something about the way he makes me smile. That and he's sweet. So that settles it then.

i miss u...