How could I have been so stupid?

Without thought, without mind.

Why did I give in so easily

My will power shot.

I convince myself I will not lose control.

I will not let anyone get the better of me. Set my limits

Then all of a sudden, my walls crash down

my barriers collapse

I'm stripped bare,

I gave in, gave all, didn't hold back

There has to be a kind word for this
But I dont think it exists in this place