I honestly hate to do this but I need to let it out. I've been keeping quiet for far too long and more than anything I hope you see this and that some of it actually gets into your thick, self-obsessed skull. I was thinking of being poetic, but you dont mean as much to me as you used to, and as much as I do wanna be your friend, you're making it really hard.
We were worlds apart, seemingly different and yet we clicked so well. We have so much in common, even used to think the same way. I was there for you, to listen and be heard, to be a shoulder when he hurt you, to keep you grounded. Yet for all it's worth, you didn't try. You changed and you don't even see it. Or maybe it was all an act until now. You took advantage of us, used us when you needed someone and then threw us away when you had all that you wanted. We tried to help you, to stop you from making the mistakes you made but you never listened. We tried to make time for you, work around your schedule as much as ours and as much as I'd like to believe you did the same. All I can say is, you did a good job pretending. I used to talk to you, make the first move, look out for you, take an interest in how you were, but "WHERE WERE YOU?".
I'd hoped you had changed cause in some way it looked like you did. The first week was a blast, then it began all over again. You never called or messaged. Not even on MSN. We tried lookin for you, calling you, but yea once again, nothing. Just one lunch, is it really too much to ask? Don't give me that crap about your workload. I've been there, it's nothing, at least not yet. When you see me you expect me to suddenly be all about you? I don't think so. You were just about to call me? Bullshit! Seriously, wake up!
I don't wanna say anymore but I could bring up a hundred more things. If you don't even think we're worth your time then fine, but stop pretending like you care when we all know the only one you care about most is you.
We were worlds apart, seemingly different and yet we clicked so well. We have so much in common, even used to think the same way. I was there for you, to listen and be heard, to be a shoulder when he hurt you, to keep you grounded. Yet for all it's worth, you didn't try. You changed and you don't even see it. Or maybe it was all an act until now. You took advantage of us, used us when you needed someone and then threw us away when you had all that you wanted. We tried to help you, to stop you from making the mistakes you made but you never listened. We tried to make time for you, work around your schedule as much as ours and as much as I'd like to believe you did the same. All I can say is, you did a good job pretending. I used to talk to you, make the first move, look out for you, take an interest in how you were, but "WHERE WERE YOU?".
I'd hoped you had changed cause in some way it looked like you did. The first week was a blast, then it began all over again. You never called or messaged. Not even on MSN. We tried lookin for you, calling you, but yea once again, nothing. Just one lunch, is it really too much to ask? Don't give me that crap about your workload. I've been there, it's nothing, at least not yet. When you see me you expect me to suddenly be all about you? I don't think so. You were just about to call me? Bullshit! Seriously, wake up!
I don't wanna say anymore but I could bring up a hundred more things. If you don't even think we're worth your time then fine, but stop pretending like you care when we all know the only one you care about most is you.
3 comments:
chill girl!
I think i was guilty of that too.. LOL!
i love tom. dick. harry (prefer to call hairy though!) they're so octorpus-ly cute!
charps/charmaine here! :D
hey,
i'm really sorry this time.
i know how much sorries i have said, how many times i have just abandoned you all.what you said, really just made me think about it all.i realised how much i have not bothered. i treasured the friendship we had, yet i..just did not show it >< i'm just so sorry to you two.i'm not pretending to be apologetic, i'm just here to say that,if it's really not too late, i really wish to make up for everything that i made wrong.i cant promise you that it would be good,but i'll do my best.really.if it's still possible.i din know i changed that much,din even think about anyth.i know how selfish i have been,yet all i can seem to say is sorry.i just really really wish to ask for your forgiveness.i really dont wish to lose both of you,and i really did not mean to make it seem to you like i'm making use of both of you.really really sorry,i'm just hoping i can have another chance now.
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