Love

Not everything is put infront you, nothing is as it seems. Everyone puts up fences to hide hurt and suffering. When you know someone well enough or if you want something bad enough, you tend to find a way. It's hard to trust instincts and when your head gets in the way, the heart closes and somehow bleeds. To remind you it's there.

This is the second time, and now there's no turning back. Why is it that when I'm alone, I can think of all the reasons why I should go and never look back, but when I hear your voice or see your face, it makes me miss you and never want to leave?

Now I'm here alone missing you and more than anything I wish I could take the last hour away

I love you, but not as much as you love me. I would do almost anything for you, but you'd give your life in an instant for me. How can I carry on lying to you, to myself, to everyone else. You're too good for me, you, whose character never fails to humble me. Somehow, you could put aside all your anger, all your sadness and frustration just to make me smile and all I knew how to do was scowl and throw a tantrum. Sometimes, I wish I could be like you, feel the way you do, and see myself the way you do. I think you see something so much more than what I am. You see me through those rose-tinted glasses and for all that I do, you're the only one holding on.

I never deserved you, but yes, you in all your simple ways taught me the biggest lesson. I see it in you, and when I think I'm close to it, I'm reminded just how far away I really am.

You taught me love, in it's harshest form.

There are no bigger words than 'Thank You' or 'I Love You' but even these seem so insignificant. It can't erase the hurt I'm causing you, can't take away the guilt that eats at me everyday. There is nothing I can say to make this go away.


I think you can do much better than me,
After all the lies that I made you believe.
I told myself I wont miss you,
But I remember, what it feels like beside you.
I think you can do much better than me