It's the start of October and my countdown has officially begun. 18 more days, about 2 weeks. My pay has been banked in which means I can finally go buy my camera. I can't wait to see all my family and friends, open presents, eat CAKE, and possibly get some up my nose. (if i know Fadhillah, and I do, that'll be one of her objectives).

The more I think about it, the more I find the presents are secondary, I want the time. Time spent with the people I love and miss terribly. If I could have it all I'd fly Ann Marie and her bf( cause I know she'll miss him) down here for a week or at least the weekend. I miss all the friends I havent had time to meet. Friends and Family.

I havent had my whole family gathered together in a long time and I think, as much as there are problems between them, it shouldn't cause a rift. We're all family, we love and care and there should always be this sense of closeness. This bond in our blood that should remind us that no matter what, there'll always be someone there. I'm lucky, I know, my family is neutral, we're the glue, we don''t ask for anything more than for them to come and have a good time.

Note: I still wouldn't mind PRESENTS!

I know someone who makes me laugh and cry

Someone who hurts me

and yet I can never figure out why

someone who, without knowing it

can make me jealous ,happy, angry, sad,

he's a drug I can't let go, there's something about him

Is this Love? I just don't know.

"you are the heart that I call home"