Letting go of all I've held on to

Lately I find I have alot to say, but whenever I want to let it out, the words never seem to flow. it's so weird how I have so many feelings but I cant seem to voice them, not even to some of my closest friends. I guess I'm just insecure, because I know that there are people I just cant trust. It's like the saying goes, "the walls have ears" and it's true, because no matter what, someone always finds out. I cant go on trusting only myself, because I know someday, I'm going to breakdown, and when I do, there'll be no one who could possible understand. I guess I may be saying a whole lot of utter rubbish, but that's all Ive been getting from some people. People who call the one person who I've hurt only to hurt him more with malicious lies, people who take advantage of what is given to them, and people who seriously have nothing better to do than pick fights. I guess this should sum it up. (Don't bother getting a full explaination)


It broke my heart to let u go
the memories drift still painfully slow,
I lay in wait, as the days went past
wondering when I'd be free at last.

Too soon it seems, i finally found
a touch of comfort in this cold, silent ground
Where I could finally be me, myself and only I.
no one around to hold me down, make me sit, stay, or roll around.

I never felt, such sudden bliss,
this unfamilar comfort, like a windswept kiss
Now I stand for all to see,
An individual, whose head, held up high

reaching out to touch the sky...